double heartache

Jelly Bean and Julia have been struggling for 2 days.  I spent hours dropperfeeding them, holding them, laying on the couch with them.  They did not gain any weight since they came nor did they lose weight.  I tried so very hard but love alone cannot do it every time.  This morning at 1:40 Julia was gone.  Then at 6:30  am Jelly Bean was not great and at lunch time she was gone.  But.......Jamieson has been gaining weight like crazy, is a big boy, healthy, solid and very busy.  He will be spoiled rotten as I will be holding him a lot just so he doesn't feel lonely.  My heart will heal.